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    Sunday, July 3rd, 2005
    3:09 pm
    Otis the Steering-wheel-less one
     So I bought a lift kit yesterday, whoho (the springs are military wrapped which was an unexpected bonus) and then went to Autozone and got: Fuel pump, fuel filter, carb rebuild kit, spark plugs, ignition wires, cap and rotor, air filter, oil filter, and a bunch of small fluids and shit. I did everything today inabout 2 hours plus another 45 minutes to rebuild the carb, went much faster than I thought it would. Should be running much better after I get the timing right and running. It just started raining so I'm not going to put the carb back on today.

    I'm ordering a stock steering wheel tonight and hopefully by the end of the week I'll have ordered tires too. Who knows maybe by next weekend the Jeep will be up and running and riding and steering right!

    Current Mood: excited
    Friday, July 1st, 2005
    9:29 pm
    OFF, O...F....F......, IT FELL THE FUCK OFF!!!!
     So out cruising in the Jeep to see Twist at his new home, on the way back going 40 MPH, the steering wheel falls off. O..F..F.. Off!!! I managed to slow way down and it miracously went straight, oh by the way the Jeep has been named Otis the Drunk for his wandering ways, so it going straight is frickin amazing. I got Otis onto the shoulder somehow and stopped about two feet from a ditch. Turns out the splines on the steering wheel have stripped and I'm just damn lucky iot happened while going straight and not going around a corner or while stopping really hard for a yellow. Wow was that scary, and now kinda funny since I, Marianne and the Jeep are ok.



    DAMN!!!!


    That sucked.



    Only to be topped by the two Moron, I mean Mormon missonaries who stopped to see if I was ok and after finding out I was ok decided that was the perfect time to spread the word of Jebus. Fucking wankers.

    Well tomorrow fixing the shower, buying suspension stuff, and oh yeah buying a new steering wheel, one thats the right size. (I think the other one was a little big and thats why it was stripping.)

    Current Mood: thoughtful
    Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
    9:58 pm

    Yeah so another large break between entries. 

    So life, um pretty good all in all.  Job good, now a LBP Inspector and run the mold stuff for the most part, and the two office people we've hired are under me and I'm refered to a couple of times a day on the phone as "my boss" which is weird.  Relationships with everyone are good, or at least not bad.  Stuff with Mom is weird and probably always will be because she's changed a bunch.  Most my friends from High School are back in Boulder but I don't see them much cept Aaron and Mike.  Stuff with Marianne is still good, we just got back from a trip to Iowa for her family reunion which was fun. 

    Mentally I'm doing much better about anxiety, it only pops up every now and then instead of every day.  Depression is pretty much nonexsisent.

    Downers:  SCHOOL!!! I'm making no progress on my two indy classes becuase I couldn't shit a give about school.  Need to do them, just don't care.  In therory this is my last semster, one of the only things I remeber my therapist asking me was if I was afraid of school being over or if there was some reason I didn't want to be done.  I can't think of anything like that and I don't think that is the reason.  I just think I'm sick of school and can't make myself care.  Its funny because its not like I feel dumb, or that its too hard.  I know for a fact that if I even gave half the effort of other people i know I coul dget straight A's in any subject I wanted.  But I can't make myself care about school.  Maybe I'm just at the wrong school or taking the wrong classes or the wrong major.  Who knows, if I could start over again I wouldn't even go to school, hell I'd probably have dropped out in the last year if it weren't for the ass pile o' money that I owe now and I don't want to waste it. 


    Sigh, ok now that I've depressed my self by pointing out how stupid I am for not even trying even though school is one of the easiest things for me to do, maybe thats it maybe its not challenging and things like mechanics or new work things are challenging.

    Ok Uppers: JEEP!!!  I bought Shep's parent's 1974 CJ5.  Its a 258 (4.2 litres for you Brits and other silly Euros out there) 3 spd.  Its got 4.27 gears stock and a gear driven (as opposed to chain driven which is weaker) Spicer 20 transfer case.  Its got some issues, like a suspension that is shot, wandering steering and rust on the floor pans, but its mine, it runs and its fun!!   Its current name is Cyclops because it had a single fog light in the front but thats just a working name, it won't be its name for long.  This summer I'm hopeing to fix the suspension, and steering, put in a new wiring harness and hopefully by August or early September go 4 wheeling!

     



    Current Mood: tired
    Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
    2:54 pm
    So lifes mostly good. Work just got a 30000 a month contract and I'm getting certified LBP inspector and maybe AMS as well. I really want a change of sceenary. Weither its moving further north or further south in colorado or even better out of the state I really want to be out of were I am. COurse I'm stressed about money since my student loans are going to be around 200 to 250 a month. I'm really pissed at my parents now that I know how much its gonna cost. They've always paid for all of davids stuff first and now I am paying for every single thing except food. I don't know a single other person in college right now, i mean friends and aquatences, who have to pay for half of what I'm paying for now. Aaron excluded. TO top it off my parents combined make over 160000 a year and stil haven't ontributed much. Total, over 4.5 years, it comes to about 4000 for school and my mom paid for my cell for a year and a half. I'm in over 40000 of debt in student loans. THis sucks big floppy donkey dick.
    Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
    11:53 am
    Interesting weekend, Christmas was great with Marianne, ok with Dad and weird with Mom. Dads heart procedure went fine, while I was waiting I watched all 3 extended edition Lord of the Rings DVDs in one day. Might be going to Tucson, dont know yet. Arg.
    Monday, December 27th, 2004
    3:38 pm
    Moms annoying me, we were going to go to Tucson, me her and Marianne were going to go, but aparently MOm wanted to go just the two of us but again she keeps fricking waiting until the last minute to tell me what she wants so I had already made plans to include Marianne in the trip but now mom doesn't want to go as much. Fuck it I';ll work instead and hangout here. I don't like spending that much time with her anyways.
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
    2:29 pm
    SO I passed mt classes with the execption of the one that I failed sometime in October. Good stuff. Can't wait for christmas so I can give Marianne her presents. A little stressed about meeting her ex from high school and his mom who are close family friends of family but not bad. Work is good, low stress for the most part, except when Lauren and Judy fight like right now, trying very hard to become a fly or something.

    Want a different truck kinda, want a sports car and want a jeep, rats.
    Saturday, December 18th, 2004
    6:49 pm
    Lifes pretty good, I failed one class but I knew that was coming so its not that bad anymore. Going to be making alot of money next semester and having to talk myself out of buying a 350 Crew Cab, especially since it wouldn't be that much more, like 30 dollars a month, expensive than sparky. The engine thing, well part of me thinks that I have to pay the money no matter what so whats the point of keeping it and the other thinks I should just keep it till it runs into the ground. Probably should keep it but I don't know. If I do keep Sparky I'll do some stuff, but the idea of having a 350 CC diesel might be too temping.

    Feel bad I haven't seen people recently, but between craming for finals, and work and seeing Marianne, my time is pretty minimal, which is fine with me, I love my life right now, I just hope my friends aren't too put out.

    Anyho, I think I should keep Sparky for reasons no one gets to know yet, hehehe.
    Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
    12:03 pm
    So an extra semester it is, but I'm ok with that. I'll be working 30 hours a week or more, taking on class on campus and taking a few correspondance classes. Doesn't sound that bad at all actually.
    Monday, November 29th, 2004
    11:19 am
    I hate school, I think I'll be taking another semester since I'm abou to fail two classes I think. Go me. I wish I could take time off and honestly beleive that I'd go back. But I wouldn't, not for a long time. And I need that stupid little peice of paper to make money in todays world.

    I'm feeling really shitty about myself because of this, and I got drug into playing Trival Pursiut, which I usually like tio play and is usually fun for me, but since I wasn't wanted to play and the fact I felt like shit about intelectual stuff at that time, losing made me feel even shittier and yeah.

    I want to be done with school and my appathy this semester just means that I'm gonna be stuck at school that much longer. Well its noones fault but my own, and I have to accept the consequeces of my actions. I hate school.
    Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
    10:17 am
    So this time its only been 12 days since I updated! Things with Marianne are still great, school still sucks. I finished one paper, and now I'm starting the next one. I'm thinking that maye having to take another semester wouldn't be too bad, not much school, more work, more money, but itd mean being at home still and not starting my real life. Arg.

    So between the last couple of weeks my drive to have horses and a place with land has only been intensified. I really wish I had the money to start taking some lessons, not for showing purposes but just so I can be a better rider. I want a good old horse to go trail riding with, but I also want my own place with land, and a bigger truck (we hauled with my truck this weekend and it did ok, but the extra power of a diesel would have been very welcomed going up hills. BUt since my stupid engine was replaced trading SParky in on a 1996 or so 250 or 350 deisel, while costing the same or less montly doesn't make sense since I'm paying my dad 6500 dollars back for the new engine, grrr.). Yeah pretty much I have expensive tastes, but at least I'm getting into something again, hopefully we'll be going back down to Salida this weekend for thanksgiving weekend and be able to go riding some more. Course being at the little ranch they have will just intesify my want for a place like that.

    Saying everything is great with Marianne is an understatement, I've been trying to keep my hopes undercontrol but I don't think I have to worry about this just being a rebound thing anymore, and I'm soaring. I've got a good thing going. I feel bad that I haven't hung out with Aaron and Mike and Kirsten but between everyone school schedule and workl schedules and me running all around the state on weekends, hopefully CHristmas break will me the opportunity to take more time to do stuff with people. Anyho, back to work.


    Side note: For the second year in a row Roush Racing, who drives Fords, won the Nascar Winston/Nextel Cup. Go FORD!!!!!

    Current Mood: happy
    Thursday, November 11th, 2004
    9:25 am
    So I think I may have dug a hole in school that I'm not gonna be able to fill this semseter. I think I might fail a class or two, go me. Test tomorrow, reading is done but not going to class is gonna screw me. I think this semster might be a write off. I'll just have to do the papers and finals and see what happens. Next semester I'm taking two classes on campus, one thats 2 hours on Thursday night on American Indians (Aparently this is the PC term again) in Film and one thats a three hour Critical thinking class on wedensday. And a couple of internet based continuing ed classes, that way I'm not on campus all that much and I can work for a long time and make money.

    This weekend Marianne and I are going down to her roomies moms ranch in southern colorado for a get away weekend. Should be lots of fun, they have nice land and nice horses (I haven't ridden is so long, hopefully there'll be alot of snow so when I fall off I land in something soft.) and a cool truck. Hehehe.

    Sleep is good, to bad I haven't gotten any the last couple of nights. Argg, tired and stressed over school, but whats an extra semester (or summer class) and a few thousand dollars of student loans more? I'm already in the hole like 40k. Sigh, I hate debt.
    Monday, November 8th, 2004
    9:55 am
    Been Awhile
     So its been almost a month I guess since I last posted. Things with Marianne are awesome, there are alot of things I want to say about her and our realtionship so far but I don't really want to put it up here. Um, school sucks. I'm not going and I'm not doing well (big suprize) there are alot of reasons that my therapist and I talked about, and I agree with a few of them, but I don't know how to fix it. One of the reasons I think I'm not wanting to go is that I want to be out of my house. But I can't afford to do that. I would like to transfer to another school, part of me not wanting to go is that I don't want to run into Lexi. It sounds like I'm a jerk or hung up on her when I write it but Marianne has been broken up with the guy she was with for a long time for over a year and a half and she still doesn't like running into him, so I guess I'm normal. I can't transfer because a) it would mean having to do alot more classes, b) I can't afford to live else where, and c) I've got a good job that pays well and is very flexible about my schedule. Basically I'm stuck here at CU and need to find a way to care. But I can't, I'll bust my ass as the semseter comes to an end and maybe I'll pass all my classes and be fine, but I think I may have screwed up a little to much already. We'll see, worst case I have to take another semester. Oh yeah, I might have to do that anyway, a class I need to graduate is already full and I just registered on Friday because I had no clue that registration had started, go me.

    So basically I love most my life right now, Marianne is amazing and I feel important and valued and even actractive, my job is nice, Sadie is doing better (except for her knee but I can't do anything about that until I graduate and have 2500 dollars), I have a three job oportunities whenever I graduate, and the only two things dragging me down are living at home and being in school. Grrr.
    Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
    10:25 am
    So I haven't updated in awhile, probably becuase everything with Marianne is awsome and I've been running around with her so much that I haven't been home the often and when I am I'm sleeping. School sucks, I need to be going more than I have been. Yup, working and waiting till I can go home and sleep.
    Sunday, October 10th, 2004
    1:20 pm
    Feel like I’m getting into somekinda something good
     So In the last month or two I've realized alot and many beleifs that I kinda had have been cemented or changed. One of these is that I do believe in a god, probably in the christian sense. But the other that I think is more important, is that I believe things happen for a reason. And thats a very encouranging thought, even though this summer was probably the worst period in my life it did make me apprectiate somethings or realize somethings or find somethings. The fact that my dad was there and willing to help this time, it meant alot and made me realize that I need to give him more credit, even though sometimes its overbearing, ever since the divorce hes been alot more like a dad. Sadie getting hurt has made me realize that I wasn't spending enough time with her and that I need to pay attention to her, shes helped me get through alot. And stuff with Lexi, well as happy now with Marianne (yes I know its only been two weeks, and I've been trying to keep asking myself if this is a rebound thing or real, and i'm absouluty sure thats its real and not a rebound thing) than I ever was with her, Marianne is great. Shes alot like me and our personalities and goals in life are very close and a better fit. I'm head over heals for her and she's the same way :) I love her friends too, and they like me so its all good.


    Feel like I'm gettin' into something good,
    Don't want to stop so I'm knockin' on wood,
    I think my streak of bad luck is over,
    I'm rollin’ in a field of five leaf clovers,

    Feel like I'm swingin' on a lucky star,
    A choir of angels singin' in my heart,
    I'm smiling like I never thought I could,
    Feel like I'm getting into somekinda something good

    I've had some heart aches,
    I've had some troubles,
    I've bagged my limit of them low down blues,
    I've had some bad breaks, busted my bubble
    I was overwelmed and over due,
    But now it looks like them days are through,

    Feel like I'm gettin' into something good,
    Don't want to stop so I'm knockin' on wood,
    I'm smiling like I never thought I could,
    Feel like I'm getting into somekinda something good

    I'm going deeper,
    I'm getting stronger,
    Never knew that falling could be so much fun,
    I'm a believer, my hearts a goner,
    And every second is second to none,
    What’s even better is that its just begun,

    Feel like I'm gettin' into something good,
    Don't want to stop so I'm knockin’ on wood,
    That sneaky streak of bad luck is over,
    I'm rollin’ in a field of five leaf clovers,

    Feel like I'm swingin’ on a lucky star,
    A choir of angels singing in my heart,
    I’m smiling like I never thought I could,
    Feel like I’m getting into somekinda something good,
    Feel like I’m getting into somekinda something,
    Feel like I’m getting into somekinda something good.




    (Insert REALLY, Gi-normous, gargantuan, big SMILE)
    Thursday, October 7th, 2004
    11:33 pm
    So happy, oh so happy. I can't describe how perfect we feel together.
    Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
    10:41 am
    This is so great, ever since I started talking to Marianne and seeing her I've been happier (as Tanya at work says I've been a firecracker), I've been sleeping well, and I've be oh so happy. :) I can't believe how well things are going. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I did finally kiss her last night, so no crap from you Kirsten! :) I wish I could write how I feel but its indescribable, I don't think I've ever felt this at ease and comfortable around another person. (Insert dreamy sigh as I run off to my frst class of the day)

    Oh yeah she was here until 1:30, shes ok I got an email from her this morning, and I kinda missed my first two classes, oops.
    Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
    5:16 pm
    So I have a new favorite song, but its not released even as a single yet :(
    I have to wait till the 19th I think to get it.

    Well you work and you slave
    And you spend all day in your thankless job
    hen you jump in your Ford
    And you're door to door with the homebound mob
    Then you pull in the drive and you hit the chair
    And the one that you love is waiting there

    And, hey --
    That's what it's all about
    Hey, this is the life I couldn't live without
    It's a moment frozen there in time
    Where the reasons all begin to rhyme
    Where love's a little bigger And you finally start figuring out
    That's what it's all about

    Well, they won't go to bed
    Or do what you said or eat their food
    They cry and they fuzz and you can't
    even cuss 'cause they'll say it, too
    You're tired and you're numb
    And you're stressed and you're mad
    And she smiles and says 'I love you, Dad'

    And, hey --
    That's what it's all about
    Hey, this is the life I couldn't live without It's a moment frozen there in time Where the reasons all begin to rhyme
    Where love's a little bigger And you finally start figuring out
    That's what it's all about
    Monday, October 4th, 2004
    11:42 am
    So I just talked to the vet, if we want to fix Sadie's knee, we're looking at 2500 for the surgury. I think Sadie will have to be used to limping for awhile.........
    11:15 am
    Ok now I can do a real post.

    So she liked the flowers, the pasta came ok, and the strawberries were a hit. We talked about everything, she seems to trust me with alot of personal stuff so thats good. We watched 40 days and 40 nights, which is a hilarious movie, but I can't read her signals very well. Sadie was sitting between us for a bit, after she left I went a got a class of water, came back and sat closer to her. She didn't make any attempt to move closer so........ After the movie was over we talked a bit more, and I told her that I thought she was a very cool person and I'm glad I met her. Gave her a hug, and then we walked out to her car. We actually spent another 45 minutes out at the car talking about more stuff, and when she finially was ready to leave we had an acward kiss, I went to kiss her check, not knowing what she wanted, and she stated to turn her head, so I said sorry for some reason, and then kissed her normal. But it was acrappy little peck and I hope that she wasn't expecting more. (One of things we talked about is how we over analize things) I hope she doens't think I don't like her all that much or something. I like her alot and really want to spend more time with her.

    I hope that I'm not to boring, she doesn't have much money and I don't mind spending money to go out and stuff, but I don't know what to suggest. Aggg, I was up forever last night worrying that I wasn't doing a good job, or that I don't know. So far I like everything about her, well shes had a few things in her history which I'm not wild about, but thats history. Shes cute, she has a great laugh, so likes my jokes, she loves dogs, she loves horses, she believes that marriage is forever and you need to work on it to fix it if need be, she likes country music, she likes to hangout and be lazy (woohoo!). She also has been in realtionships that lasted a time, and then the other person changed their mind. She also is a very devoted person in realstionships. I can't believe how much I like her. Like I said in an earler post, I keep trying to be critical or my feelings and making sure that I'm not just havig rebound thing, but so far (I hate coparing her to Lexi but..) shes all the things I liked about Lexi but without what I wasn't a big fan of, and she has a more similar personailty type. I'm not getting ahead of myself, but I hope we can get past this aqward beginning period and have a serious relationship. Not that I'm feeling strange about it but I can't read her emitions yet. I like her, I like her alot, and I hope she's feeling the same way.

    She had to be at work at like 6 this morning, and its a 45 minute drive! Ug. So I called and left a message earlier jsut to say I wanted to make sure you got home ok last night and I hope you had fun. I think I'm doing a good job of showing my interest, and I like her, I just hope she likes me so far. Seems like it but..............
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